How can I make this sound exactly how I mean it??

I am jealous of my ex-husband..
Hes an every other weekend parent of our children,
He can avoid most school problems, most attitude problems, most fights, the child that needs medication to make it through the day without losing it on sometime.. the boy that went from sweet little ethan, to awful, screaming child, anyways..and their dad gets a few good days with the kids, then can send them away, for me to deal with the fights again.. I know that I DO get good days too, but, I get so many fight filled and crappy days as well. :(

He skipped a weekend because him and his girlfriend just had a baby.. so I am dealing with child overload.. I need some ME time, away from all the crazyness. :/

Anyone else ever get jealous of the every other weekend parent?! :/
I swear I love my children, I just, wish I didnt have all the bad stuff, all the time.

About the Boyfriend..

Jay and I broke up,he moved out a month ago..

We are still friends.. sorta.. 

Ones that  sometimes text, and dont have time to see eachother..

Or, something like that.


Dear Self, welcome back to single life, again.  youre used to this.
~Shannon