When you have to fight for your child...

Ryders Dad and I are currently going to court for Custody of Ryder.
School time is here, and his Dad wants him in school there, and obviously, I want him in school here...
Its been ridiculously stressful, I feel sick waiting for it all to end, yet, scared for it to end incase I dont win :(
One of us will win, Ryder will not, which is sad to me :(

And, Damian is a good father, so I'm not bashing him, but, I want Ryder here with me, and in school with his brother and sister, they can support him in school, and help it be a comfortable transition for him..
Please keep us---especially Ryder, in your thoughts right now.

We go back Aug 16th for a temporary order, or something?! I dont quite get it all..

This sure made me realize how much more I appreciate my children, and I keep thinking.. daily, about how with 50/50 custody, I am actually missing half of his life! I hadnt ever thought of it like that before, and, his Dad deserves that time with him, so, I need to suck it up and get over it, but, its still upsetting.

It made me think about shitty parents tho.. the ones who are more worried about dating, and drinking, than getting their kids in their lives more, and honestly, maybe your kids are better off without you if your priorities are that fucked, just sayin..

Meet Kira!

So, I posted that I was getting a new car... never posted her tho! :P Fail, I know!
Her name is Kira, after the awesome Country Artist Kira Isabella. she sings the song "Real Good Radio" which was Berthas (old car) theme song, so this way, I can tie both cars together.. lol

So far, shes been.. okay to me. haha Wheel bearing, and a power window scare, that was fixed at a local garage by them punching my door panel! LOL